Wanderings

So I just had an argument with my mom. I'm not really in the mood for anything and I suck at cheering myself up. So when I thought of something to do to blow off steam the first thing that came to mind was writing. And come to think of it I haven't written anything in my actual notebook in a very long time. But sitting here with all these things on my mind I'm not even mad, I'm just frustrated, My mom came home and told me something that bothered me. Someone we know told her to "watch her kids" and to be careful because I wasn't the same anymore. And that definitely hit me from way out in left field because of who said it and the fact that they LEGIT know nothing about me, not like that anyway. We do interact frequently and stuff but the person knows nothing about me and to think they can make an accusation like that bothers me. It doesn't seem like a big deal but I know that it was said in a condescending manner. As if I'm doing anything foolish, psh please!! And what upsets me more is the fact that this kind of thing always happens.

I don't like fighting with my mom. I love her and I'm very close to her but she grew up with limited resources in a country that wishes it were the United States. Life has not been easy for her and she can sometimes be very close minded. I know she means well but it's just hard sometimes not to bump heads. And it sucks cause I've been doing it my whole life. I sorta feel bad now at the way I might've snapped at her it just really upsets me when people don't mind their business and talk about other people they have absolutely no clue about. Plain and simple just shut up. *sighs*

Whatever. I just needed to clear my head and this is what I do. So...yeah, goodnight I guess.

Double Take

So it looks like I'm being totally blog obsessed because I'm posting twice under the same date, but i promise I'm not. I got my laptop this morning at like 2am (my mom totally surprised me) and now I'm sitting in Barnes&Nobles sipping on Starbucks feeling totally CLASSY *giggles*. That's a total insider, but regardless I feel like I'm on top of the world right now. And that's not only because I'm sitting on a second story and everyone out the window looks so small, HA! By now you probably think that I might just need a professional diagnosis and I agree. I might, but oh well. The fact that B&N is playing non stop Christmas songs is sort of comforting. Christmas always manages to make me feel warm and cozy. I also like the fact that the songs aren't some obnoxious tryingtoohard remake, those take the joy out of the season.

I thought I had something ubber profound or knowledgeable to say, but my mind is just blank. So I'll let you guys go. Hope you have a great day and I'll "see you soon then"

WHOA

Just sayin, I GOT A LAPTOP!!

Sigh, finally.

Happy New Year! ...almost

Time fah-liessss by! It seems it's already the middle of December and the last time I posted anything up here was about a month ago. And I do pardon myself to anyone actually reading the few thoughts that make it to these posts. Life has just been very crazy with all the holidays and such, But I'm trying to be good at keeping up with all my responsibilities and this one should be one of them. So I ask that you be patient with me because I am relatively new at this and am also dealing with everything that life throws at you outside of a computer screen.

The new updates in my life are few but I do see myself almost ending my first semester of college pretty soon. Not on the greatest of notes I admit, but that will change. I'm also cutting out all the negative in my life all around. Negative influences, and friends, thoughts and most of all actions. HA! I feel like I'm writing my resolutions already and Christmas has not even gone by (pretty soon but not yet.) I feel as if every time I speak on here I mention something about what the purpose of this blog is but that's because I keep on changing and so do my thoughts. So every new day I feel like focusing on something else. So I guess a good idea were to keep this just as random as my life really is in the hopes that you can find SOMETHING to try and relate to. . .just a thought,

To those that stumble across my mind and stop to read it thank you and until next time.