Puzzled Pieces.

Sometimes God allows things to be broken so that they can be put back together the way He wants them to be.

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"Life is a funny fickle thing" :)

xo Abigail

My New Season

It's 1:06am and I'm suppose to be at work tomorrow by 7:30 I honestly don't know how I do it. But I had to say something, anything about tonight. Even if the only one paying myself any mind was me. Tonight I went to church for the second day in what we call a Youth campaign. And God embraced me tonight in a way that was different than ever before, but still so familiar that it felt as if an old friend had come home. I guess that everything that I was going through seemed like such a big deal because I was focusing on all the wrong things. I wasn't looking at the bigger picture and what I needed to be in tune with was right under my nose. And now that I am seeing clearly I feel a little frustration for not seeing things sooner.

I came thinking I was going to be able to give you guys this detailed life changing description of how things have completely just changed in one night. But it was that amazing that I can't even put it into words. Because there simply are no words. God just is, and there's sometimes no way to say who and exactly how grand he is because he's just that. . .great. That word is not the right one and doesn not do him justice, but again, I'm at a loss for words here.

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I guess I can just say that everything has turned around, at least for me. And it feels amazing. In God you find everything you need and he's given me my liberty back. The stars have alined and all I am and all I think I can be is thankful.

God bless you all and I hope that you all have a chance to experience the love that is only truly found in Christ.

xo Abigail

"If We Were a Movie"

I just caught up with last night's AWKWARD season finale and as always, it left an empty hole in my heart lol. No but seriously, I don't think I can wait till next season. It feels like next year is a lifetime away. But undoubtedly I'll be here waiting when that time of year rolls back around. Sometimes I feel a little self pity when I watch scripted teen dramas because they always make me want to live that characters' life. Whether it be that I have their wardrobe like Teddy Duncan from Disney's Good Luck Charlie, or maybe even Hannah Montana's double life (and for all of you wondering, yes, I still watch the Disney Channel). I just always seem to wish I was them. Even if the troubles that they go through are things that I have no idea how I would deal with, I always wish that it was me living them. Maybe I envy that they are actors or something but of course the reason why I desire such things are because those programs are designed to appeal to me. They were made for me to want to be these people but more importantly, for me to sit there and watch them.

And that got me thinking about what I would do if life really was like a television series. Would I react the same way? Would I have the same witty timing? I doubt it, but of course I think we've all been programed to know how to handle these situations. Not to toot my own horn, but I come up pretty good alternatives (and I don't know if I should count that as a good thing). I feel like, no, I know the media (whether we want to admit if or not) shapes at least some part of the people we are. Specifically us girls. The media tells us what to want, when to want it, how tall it must be and with how much flip in  the hair, what color it should come in and which names we should spend our money on. Which if you ask me, is pure madness. Society controls our life and again, even if we don't want to admit it, we are totally defenseless.

When it comes to life we all wish for these unrealistic happy endings that won't ever come true. So excuse me for not wanting to be a Cinderella anymore and wanting more to be my own knight in shinning armor. Like the kickass princess every girl should believe she is. Instead of wallowing in my misery or waiting for magic (that doesn't exist) to fix my problems and fight my battles, I want to be the one who comes up with my own solutions and learns my own lessons. Just like Merida from Brave she basically validates everything I just said. She tries using magic (fail) and then needs to use her own courage and strength to overcome her difficulties. And not to mention she had no time for a prince, especially since the ones she had to choose from where so not on her level. And that's exactly how boys are these days. They just don't make them like the did in Cinderella's time. And so you're forced to take matters into your own hands. And that is something I respect.

Well that was a mouthful.

All I wanted to do was talk about Awkward and here I am rallying troops for society's view on women. Well let me be a martyr for my own cause. All I know is that I can't wait till I can deliberately waste my life away watching a life I would've loved to live, corny jokes and horrible timing included. By the way, I think if I was an Awkward character I would be Tamara, off the walls at times and living in her own world, but at the end of the day always a great listener and an honest friend. But, what do I know anyway. Right?

Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs

Today I was the epitome of lazy. A sluggish cloudy day in the city and since I had no need for going outdoors, I didn't. And so I stayed in. .and did absolutely nothing aside from snack and give those looking for a new home my input while watching House Hunters on HGTV. So basically I became a couch potato. Right now I feel kind of useless because I didn't accomplish anything at all when I had plenty I could've done. Starting with cleaning my room and ending in a scarf I still have not finished. Since I can't go back in time I won't wallow in self pity instead I'll try to see the silver lining. I have church later and as you all know my faith is a huge part of my life (read posts from before). I grew up in a Christian household and thankfully have not strayed from my roots. I've been having loads of weird dreams lately that I think are lining up to mean something maybe divinely sent? Who knows yet but I guess believing in that sort of stuff is all up to interpretation.

On a different note I again feel like I might be at a standstill. I'm not too thrilled with my job right now even though my baby is #toocute (insert picture here. .for real. And I think I should get some brownie points for my Instagram reference)

See?!! Isn't he the cutest?!! I am his current Supernanny and he is honestly loads of fun. But my working arrangements, not so much. And since work is pretty much all I have going for me right now things for me get a little bland. It's just an unfortunate situation, the one I'm in. At least I am getting paid, which is really all that matters. And I deserve a raise, but then again, who doesn't think the same.

I'm jumping off the walls right now changing directions over and over again, but I have Lucy Rose serenading me in the background and it makes me feel a little sophisticated. Haha, at least this song, it sounds like something out of a movie. Maybe a sad yet inspiring scene. I don't know, maybe all I'm saying is jibber jabber. Once again thank you for coping with the jumble in my mind. Till our next chat, xo Abigail.

September Baby

It's been a couple weeks since I've graced you all with my thoughts and I guess I was being lazy. I should get some  props  though because for a while there I was on a roll. I don't have any specific angle here I just wanted to update about what was going on for me. Everything is pretty much the same and my emotions are mundane, and most days I don't really do much, except work. So I guess my life is pretty bland right now but I have a feeling that almost everything is about to change because, I'm pregnant. . JK! Good one huh, well now that I've got you're attention let me just fill you in on some of my favorites right now.

1) Awkward, of course. That should've been a given :)

2) CANDY CORN. Pretty self explanatory, I think anyway.

3) Forever21: i just went on a crazy shopping spree not too long ago, they have great stuff on SALE!
4)Performing artist Lucy Rose, look at that, even her name sounds sweet! She is the darlingest thing. I love her folk sound. I'm a sucker for indie and she fits the bill. Give her a whirl. Some of my favorite songs from her are: "Middle of the Bed", "Scar", "All I've Got" and "Red Face"

5) Autumn!! Who else is ready for the leaves to fall and the wind to pick up speed? I know I am. Summer is over, almost and I'm just so excited for it to be done!

6) On with female domination, another girly whose voice floods my ear stream, Alex Winston. Just the same she's a little indie flower child (anyone see a trend here?) But she leans more towards the pop side of things while Rose has a jazzier folk vibe. Regardless I love them equally. My favorite tunes by her are: "Sister Wives", "Locomotive", "Choice Notes (Acoustic)", "Medicine"

With the new season many things seem like they will have a new beginning and I'm willing. Willing to learn to grow and I'm completely open to change. So who knows, maybe in my next post I'll be different, maybe have won the lottery, have a new car or finally a boyfriend ;) . .KIDDING. Till next time fellow mateys. With the best of regards, Abigail.